meekaaa

Best neighbor ever.

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Theres a light that never goes out

Friends come in go into my life. I'm sure it happens to everyone of us. But there's a time when you're tired of all of that, where you just want some real friends who will always be there with you. After high school, you realize who you're real friends are. And who you want in your life. Some may reveal themselves as a potential all time best friend soul mates and you don't have to put a ring on it friendship, but it ends up in disappointment. And some come to a surprise to you when they reveal it. That's when you want to grasp it in your hand and never let it go. And that's what I really need, want, should have, kind of friendship.

I was blind at first, but now I see it. It's funny because you were here all along.

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I feel it in my bones

*lyrics

blow by blow, i didn't see it coming
blow by blow, sucker punch
rushes in, here to stay
rushes in, you are here to stay
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control, think about it
feel it in my bones
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control

Chorus
i feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slow to lettin me go
and i know this feeling oh, so
this feeling in my bones

left hook, I didn't see it comin
left hook, you've got dead aim
rushes out, run away
rushes out, you always run away
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control, think about it
feel it in my bones
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control

Chorus
i feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slow to letting me go
and i know this feeling oh, so
this feeling in my bones

i feel you in my bones
you're knockin at my windows
you're slow to letting me go
and i know this feeling oh, so
this feeling in my bones

i feel it in my bones
and then my skull feels pressure
i feel it in my bones
i feel it in my skull

Chorus
i feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slow to letting me go
and i know this feeling oh so
this feeling in my bones

i take a breath, take a breath
with me blow by blow anekatips.com
take a break, take a break from you
you are here to stay
i take my heart out of my chest
i just don't need it anymore
take my hand up again
i just don't need it anymore
(repeat)

Chorus
i feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slow to letting me go
and i know this feeling oh so
this feeling in my bones

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'Love hard when there is love to be had'

"You aren't going to be her first, her last, or her only. She's loved before, she will love again, but if she loves you now what else matters? Shes not perfect. You aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if she can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to her and give her the most you can. She isn't going to quote poetry, shes not thinking about you every moment, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you could break. Don't hurt her, don't change her, don't expect more than she can give. Don't analyze. Smile when she makes you happy, yell when she makes you mad, and miss her when shes not there. Love hard when there is love to be had."



Lyrics

And if I could swim
I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating
in the dark.
And if was blessed
I walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving
Sunken chest.
'Cause they chose you
As the model
For their empty little dreams.
With your new head
And your legs spread
Like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you
And they gut you
And you give in.

And if I was brave
I'd climb up to you on the mountain.
They led you to drink from their fountain
Spouting lies.
And I'd slay
The horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission
To your eyes,
And I'd stand there
Like a soldier
With my foot upon his chest.
With my grin spread
And my arms out
In my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me
I'd remind you
Who you are...
Under their shell..

I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes.
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you
Let the torturing ensue.
My soul is useless without you

And if they sent a whirlwind,
I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake,
I'd calm it,
And I'd bring you back to me,
And I'd hold you
In my weak arms like a first born.

I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes.
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you
Let the torturing ensue.
My soul is useless without you (through hell for you)

(through hell for you) without you
Without you (through hell for you)
Without you (through hell for you)

Now, I've walked through hell for you,
What's an adventurer to do
But rest these feet at home with you

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Summer: You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me.

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Stuff I want back

It's been a while since I blogged. I don't really have any motivation to blog anymore. I'm such a downer but no one will really understand. Anyways it's been almost two months since I started school. I must say it's not easy at all. My bad decisions are kicking my in my ass right now. Or maybe the world is trying to sabotage my life. Hahaha... yeah.. I was going into a mid term thinking that I know everything. Well actually.. I did, most of it. I just didn't get my work and that really killed my marks. I didn't have enough time to revise my work. I got perfect on the hardest part because I actually looked over it. And I got crappy marks on the easier part, which sucks! But anyways it's over and done with and I guess I'll have to deal with it. I'll do better on the next one.

Lately, I've been a depressed son of a btch. I have a lot of things in my head and I just can't handle it all. Like the sense of something missing. I think it is because I haven't touched my hobbies in a while, skating and photography. Someone said to me,"When I hear someone say that something is missing, I usually think it's a boyfriend or girlfriend." You know what, I really don't know. But what I know is that when I think of having someone, it will just build up more stress and problems. It's not like I have a problem, it's just making something out of nothing and it totally sucks. This is when I usually dream about the past. Back in the day when I was a kid again.

K let me tell you a little story. Back when I was living in the Philippines, my dad had a shotgun. He would go out in the patio and shoot birds in the air. Then I would go fetch him the dead bird. It's cruel but I loved it when he actually hit it and I would fetch it for him. I think it's human nature to think that violence is entertaining. Anyways, one day I woke up earlier than everyone else. Oh yeah I forgot to tell you that I was probably around 5-6 at this time. So you know how we children were. Well for me, I was really curious on how things work. So when I am curious I want to figure things out. So the shotgun was against the wall; standing on the butt. And I walked up to it and guess what I did? I pulled the trigger. It went off. Thank god there were no shells in it, only gun powder. I woke up the whole house. I thought it was so cool but I got in deep shit for it, haha. Seriously I could of hurt my self.

Man, I always lie on my bed late at night just thinking. It has become a daily occurrence. Sometimes I just lie there for hours and I become frustrated with my self because I have to sleep! Maybe I'm holding on the past too much but hey, can't a man dream? What I really miss is, you're going to think I'm so gay but whatever, I miss being happy. I don't remember the last time I was truly happy. But this I realized recently, you choose to be happy. Actually a friend of mine told me that. I just seems like once things are good, eventually that feeling will get shot down like one of those birds my dad killed. I'm not an emo ass mother sucker, I'm just frustrated. May think it's stupid, but that's life right? I mean who here had a time where they felt frustrated? Yeah I thought so. It's just my time. So for now, I'll just deal with it, suck it up. Let it be and whatever happens, happens. Right? Yeah. I'm on my pursuit trail to happiness. =)

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Pursuit of happiness

Life story..... for reals.


Lyrics =

VERSE 1:

Crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit
Feelin’ lit feelin’ light, 2 am summer night.
I don't care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk, I'm doin’ my thing
Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life getting’ out dreams
People told me slow my road I'm screaming out fuck that
Imma do just what I want lookin’ ahead no turnin’ back
if I fall if I die know I lived it to the fullest
if I fall if I die know I lived and missed some bullets

CHORUS

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold
I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good.

VERSE 2:

Tell me what you know about dreamin’ dreamin’
you don't really know about nothin’ nothin’
tell me what you know about them night terrors every night
5 am, cold sweats wakin’ up to the skies
tell me what you know about dreams, dreams
tell me what you know about night terrors, nothin’
you don't really care about the trials of tomorrow
rather lay awake in a bed full of sorrow

CHORUS:

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold
I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good


CHORUS:

I'm on the pursuit of happiness. I know everything that shines ain't always gold
I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good

CHORUS:

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold, hey
I'll be fine once I get it, yeah, I'll be good

I'm on the pursuit of happiness
And I know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold, hey
I'll be fine once I get it, yeah
I'll be good

Pursuit of happiness, yeah
I don’t get it, I’ll be good

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One of them days

Lyrics

It's just one of them days
When i wanna be all alone
It's just one of them days
When i gotta be all alone
It's just one of them days
Don't take it personal
I just wanna be all alone
And you think i treat you wrong

Verse 1:
I wanna take some time out to think things through
I know it always feels i'm doing you wrong
But i'm so in love with you
So understand that i'm only in love
You're the only one i need
So have no thought that i want to leave
And baby trust me please

Chorus:
It's just one of them days
That a girl goes through
When i'm angry inside
Don't wanna take it out on you
Just one of them things
Don't take it personal
I just wanna be all alone
And you think i treat you wrong

Don't take it personal
Baby, baby, baby, baby ,baby
Don't take it personal

Verse 2:
I sit and i think about everything we do
And i find myself in misery and that ain't cool
Hey now, I really wanna be with you the whole way through
But the way you make me feel inside leaves confused
As i swing back mood to mood it's not because of you
I never want you to be insecure
So won't you understand that i'm only in love you're the only one i need
I'll be there for you when you need me boy
So baby don't still leave


Chorus:
Just one of them days
That a girl goes through
When i'm angry inside
Don't wanna take it out on you
Just one of them things
Don't take it personal
I just wanna be all alone
And you think i treat you wrong

Chorus:
Just one of them days (Just one of them days)
That a girl goes through
When i'm angry inside
I don't wanna take it out on you
Just one of them things
Don't take it personal
I just wanna be all alone
And you think i treat you wrong

Don't take it personal
Baby, baby, baby, baby ,baby
Don't take it personal

Don't take it personal, yeah
Don't take it personal

Chorus:
Just one of them days (Just one of them days)
A girl goes through
When i'm angry inside
Don't wanna take it out on you
Just one of them things
Don't take it personal
I just wanna be all alone
And you think i treat you wrong

Don't take it personal baby, personal baby, personal baby
personal baby, personal baby, personal baby, personal baby
personal babay

Just one of them days

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Melt my heart to stone

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Make you feel my love

Last verse is really something.
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When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I've known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

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Stuck in the middle

lyrics

I sit and think about the day that you're gonna die,
'Cause your wrinkled eyes betrayed the joy with which you smiled.
Care to see my reason?
Care to put your life in mine?
Looking at life from the perspective of a boy
Who's learnt to love you but has also learned to grow.
Could we make it better, stormy weather?
So I dunno.

Oh, oh, oh - Is there anybody home?
Who will believe me, won't deceive me, who'll try to change me?
Ah, ah, ah - Is there anybody home?
Who wants to have me, just to love me?
Stuck in the middle.

I look at you,
You look at me,
We bite each other.
And with your better words you kick me in the gutter.
But my troops are bigger than yours
'Cause you'll never stand my fight.
Ours is a family that's based upon tradition
But with my careless words I tread upon your vision.
Are five kids better than one, who'd busy like to be gone?

Oh, oh, oh - Is there anybody home?
Who'll believe me, won't deceive me, who'll try to change me?
Ah, ah, ah - Is there anybody home?
Who wants to have me, just to love me?
Stuck in the middle.
Yeah...Yeah...Yeah...

This is to my name,
This ain't a pretty plan to break your heart of me.
I know that what I've started means that when we have parted
I can live in honesty.

Oh, oh, oh - Is there anybody home?
Who'll believe me, won't deceive me, who'll try to change me?
Ah, ah, ah - Is there anybody home?
Who wants to have me, just to love me?
Stuck in the middle,
Stuck in the middle,
Stuck in the middle,
Stuck in the middle

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half-heartedly

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Future pad

I want my crib to look like this when I have a house. It would be sickkkkkk.

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A friend is a four letter word

Lyrics

to me, coming from you,
friend is a four letter word.
end is the only part of the word
that i heard.
call me morbid or absurd.
but to me, coming from you,
friend is a four letter word.


to me, coming from you,
friend is a four letter word.
end is the only part of the word
that I heard.
call me morbid or absurd.
but to me, coming from you,
friend is a four letter word.


when I go fishing for the words
i am wishing you would say to me,
i'm really only praying
that the words you'll soon be saying
might betray the way you feel about me.


but to me, coming from you,
friend is a four letter word.

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My life according to Colorgenics

Name: karl
Date: 10/5/2009
Colorgenics Number: 65204371


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You appreciate the better things of life and you don't particularly want to strive in order to achieve them. What a pity you were not born into the Gentry with servants, etc. Unfortunately - life is not like that. You have the ability to be whatever it is that you would like to be but you must make the effort.

You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.

You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realise these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.

You are feeling really bogged down and extremely stressed. This is perhaps due to the desire for personal independence which has been evading you for some time now. An existing situation or relationship is causing you to be extremely restless and you feel that you are unable to change the situation without co-operation. You are unwilling to expose your vulnerability and therefore you consider it inadvisable to display affection or be over demonstrative. You regard this relationship as a depressing tie, but although you want to be independent and unhampered, you do not want to risk losing anything. All this leads you to react touchily and with impatience, while the urge to get away results in considerable restlessness: your ability to concentrate may suffer.

Circumstances are such that you have been exposed to considerable stress and tension, perhaps due to unfulfilled emotional needs. You would like nothing better than to escape from it all by retiring to some 'fantasy land' where you are permitted to RELAX and get back your strength.


Pretty accurate

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