Numb

It's been week after week.
Bad news after another.
Things just aren't getting better.
Still I am living.
Living like there's nothing to look forward to when I wake up.
Knowing what my day is going to consist of.
Every night is the same.
I lie awake staring in the darkness just
thinking,
over and over.
I wake up right before my alarm,
as if my mind knows.
Knows the daily routine.
I just lie there.
Feeling numb.