Give in to love or live in fear

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ps. I miss you too, so much.

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Doing it right this time
with the right girl

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"Rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me truth."

-Into The Wild

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I admire a lot of people in my life
seeing that they're all doing their thing and just trying to get to where they want to get you know what I'm saying.
to the nerds who put their noses for hours in that text books
to the jerk offs that never take work off
to the homies who do both, damn.
I really admire all those people cause right now I feel like doing that but I'm lost.
I hate school at the moment. One full year take a lot out of a man. At the same time, working ain't happening right now. I feel like if I work, it's not worth it because I'll just be buying things that I desire. With all desired things obtained, I still feel like something is missing. And it ain't no woman.
Thats why I'm anticipating summer.
Go out
play some hoop
skate
sip on 40s
endless video gaming nights
etc.

Thats whats missing, the FUN!
miss that shit.

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carpe diem




........I need to do that more often

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I wanna move somewhere where no one knows my name
so it feels like I started over.

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I can't seem to close my eyes, think of my happy place, and fall asleep.
Lately, i've been sleeping at 5,6, even 7am.
I wake up around 2,3, or even 4pm.
Some days i don't even see daylight.
In addition, i have nothing to do for the day.
I sit on my broke ass computer chair and watch movies or shows until i go insanely bored.
I try to sleep early, but even alcohol isn't even working.
I have so many things on my mind..

I keep replaying those scenes that i kept in my memory.
Those scenes that remind me of you.
Even the tiniest things.
Replay like a broken record.
I don't know anymore.

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2011........you fcking suck

I had good intentions, yet I still get flamed.....



big fat fuck you.

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Well..... peace 2010. You were quite interesting.

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1m

it's been one month since you stumbled into my life.
at first, i was skeptical to let just anyone in my life, specially one who i hatED, but i took the chance. thinking if someone like my sibling could trust you, why not? i didn't know what you're intentions was with me so i asked, but still did not believe such a thing. at the time, i couldn't see just anyone doing such a kind thing to someone he or she barely knew, though we've known each other for so long. i really had no clue what to do when you walked into my life. but you knew i needed someone to just support and comfort me at the time. there you were 3am in the morning by my bedside listening and comforting me until i stopped nervously shaking. as days passed, you worried about my status. you wanted to help me get back on my two feet. surprisingly, it was a speedy recovery. you were like an advil to my headache, though i did not need to take you 3 times a day to make the pain go away. seriously, without you there, i can only imagine all the horrible sleepless nights i would endure, all the alcohol i would of consumed, all the sins i would have committed. till this day, you're here, not cause i'm still in pain, but we grew our relationship through such a horrible incident. now this friendship, this friendship, i can honestly say is one of the best friendships i have ever had. its foundation is based on honesty. one of the things i value the most. i know in the future i will be seeing you more. and i am thankfulblessed you have you in my life.

it's funny how the worst situation can have some pretty positive outcomes.


happy 1month friendship thingy.

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right place, wrong right time.





I can't imagine how it would be like without you here.
Well, I can but it's not positive.
It's actually pretty heart aching.
Really grateful for all the things you've done.
Thanks for being well..... you.
It was really unexpected, but I'm glad this happened.

I'm having a really hard time expressing how I'm feeling right now
but they're all good???? hahah
It's just...... unexplainable; can't put into words.

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN GEEZ.

...I think this is my first happy blog :)

I TRIED LOL

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If you give 100%, you'll receive 100%.
If not, then she ain't worth it.

It's not 50-50,
It's 100-100 or none.

Just give and give, but don't expect anything in return.
Hopefully she'll return the favour.

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funny how the worst situations can bring positive outcomes.

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I just wanna make you happy

please don't fade away.

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No one understands.

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That winter feeling.







Loneliness.

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The Man's Guide To Love

If I could give advice about love...
It would be..

Direction is more important than speed

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I don't know how/what/why/when/where/the fuck I relapsed.


When someone says they making a change, it just means they're forcing themselves to live the way that they don't want to live.
For example, homework. Everyone can do homework. Do they want to do it? No.. BUT, she/he can IF they wanted to.

I need to get off the computer more often.
and stop sleeping so late, it's driving me wacko.

It seems to me that you're taking me for granted.

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It never really hit me until I heard it from someone else.
That life doesn't get any better from here, it just gets worse.
Tough.

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